Does it take so little?

Well I'm back from a conference in Munich.  Not great, but some interesting contacts and the possibility of an invite to run a seminar in Scandinavia (won't hold my breath, but it was a positive response to my presentation)

But today I'm feeling gloomy.  A whole muddle of things; I'm pretty certain that I've put on yet more weight - so I feel angry and disparaging about myself. I am concerned that I have some tricky waters ahead to navigate in personal relationships,

but most of all I'm horrified at how little time

• focusing on my job and networking with academics with whom I might want to work,
• how little time focusing on my career,
• how little time focusing on how people respond to my ideas and presentation,
• how little time focusing on people's gratitude for my adivice ..

just how little time it took for me to get wrapped up in myself, me, me, me ...

and of course when that happens I remember that I'm a huge disappointment (Putting on weight etc. etc.) ...

Celtic Morning Prayer starts

One thing I have asked of the Lord,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life;
to behold the beauty of the Lord
and to seek Him in His temple.

Pondering that today it seems such plain, good advice, but did it really take so little to shift my focus?

Comments

[Kathryn]

Pretty sure you don't /actually/ have to beat yourself up with nettles, you know...and I'm hugely grateful for the reminder of those words. I used Celtic Daily Prayer for the Office for quite a while, and that was one of my very favourite bits. At the start of a busy busy week, it was good to pause and read. Thank you.

[rev mommy]

I've been there. It's so easy to get caught up in self and not know it and then get slapped in the face with it.

Blessings.

(weight, heh, we won't talk about weight....)
=o)

[Whitewave]

There's a bit of a buzz about this article over at a magazine called "Fast Company". Maybe you've already heard about it. I read it out from Jason's place yesterday. I'm still thinking about it. I think it might be right up your alley - teaching management and all.

http://www.fastcompany.com/magazine/94/open_change-or-die.html

This is one thing I got out of it: When people feel alone we revert back to comforting patterns. Both aspects of that need to be addressed. "Feeling" and "Alone".